God gave me more than I could handle. Chances are, mama, He did you, too.
I saw you today, carrying your newborn tightly at the zoo, and I passed you on the drive home, carefully getting to school to pick them up.
I’m just like you — debating if your toddler needs Benadryl or if Zyrtec alone will be okay. Deciding if a shower is more important than folded clothes, wondering whether the dress you’re planning to wear Sunday still fits.
And the light turns red, and I stop and look in the rearview mirror and realize — they’ll never be this little again.
So I pull over and pick up cookies and promise them a treat — just – for – being – them.
And I watched the young girl at the drive thru window watch me, and I let her know how glad I am.
Glad I have a van load to haul. Glad my baby is crying now close to home instead of out in the crowds. Glad we have food to eat and mouths to feed.
We get home, and we thank God together. We thank God for so much.
And later, I hear myself tell my two-year-old “just one more time” for the fifth time he went down the slide. I watch them wrestle and get so close to getting hurt. I hear a cry to come get our littlest right as the others lay down to sleep.
And I think God gave me more than I could handle. But not more than He can. And I feel His grace rush over me like a salty wave, and I relax and breathe in so much goodness and grace. More than I can carry.
And I ask Him to make me gentle enough and wise enough and as worthy as I can aspire to not only be their mother but be a Godly one.
Lord, give me more strength and more dignity.
And they call me to come back up the stairs for just one more hug. I thank God he gave me so much. So much more.
“Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations forever and ever.” Ephesians 3:20-21
Happy Mother’s Day to all with mothering hearts. I am so thankful for the difference you make. God is doing a great work in you. Keep on.